i am so grateful you came
There are many things in this world that are inevitable: one’s arrival in it, one’s exit out of it. Many things will come on their own accord, things one cannot control or so accurately anticipate.
The blossoming in my heart when I keep a steady presence in my own life. In presence, everything feels full, everything I have is sacred, everyone in it is God presence.
Yet the mind still wanders,
out into the inevitability of things —
It knows that one day the heart will have to let go of what it loves and who it loves most. It knows that this body is temporary. That life is a temporary happening, a momentary gift.
So, what will we do with the time that we have left?
Is it wise to act with a sense of urgency?
I’ve been practicing what it is to be with who I love, wholly. To listen attentively to their voice when they speak. To take inventory of all their intonations. To look deeply into their eyes, to remember in great detail all of the colors and freckles. To capture these visions with my eyelids, to keep, forever. To be so present with them, like it’s the only moment in life I get to experience and so I remain there, idle, unfragmented.
Refusing to keep love at a distance
Remaining in an intimate proximity to love at every moment
Saturating your being in another’s presence
Shifting “I am so angry you left” to “I am so grateful you came”
These are all practices
You tell me to remain unattached, but attached is all I’ve ever known. I cling to the one I love because the one I love stimulates a joy inside of me that is so deeply beautiful and true.
How could I have seen me without you?
There is an incurable ache in my heart that swells when I think of the one I love leaving.
Where will I keep all of our memories?
Anyway, what I mean to say is,
No, you didn’t stay forever. I understand no one is allowed to —
And mostly, I want you to know that
I am so grateful you came.
I stand in the blessing that is you. I acknowledge how extraordinary it is that out of all possibilities, life brought you to me.
